2011 Recap

As I think back on all that has happened in 2011 there is one phrase that seems to incorporate my 2011 in a nut shell: "Everything is going to be OK." No doubt this is a phrase we all hear quite often, especially as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. For whatever reason I have not only heard this quite a bit the last year but it has found a way to be a big part of my year. Allow me to share my experiences with you and what I learned.



Introductory Experience #1:

Many months ago I heard a friend use this phrase. I can't remember what she was talking about but for some reason it stood out to me. She was so anxious about something in her life that wasn't going exactly according to plan (weird, right? I mean my life always goes exactly as I plan). It seemed that she used this phrase to take the anxiety around the situation away. This seems to be something we tell ourselves so that we don't have to worry ourselves to death but can keep living instead. As she said this it was as if a cloud of anxiety lifted from her. Later I will get into the truth of this statement and how it relates to the gospel, but what I learned in this moment was that this saying or phase is used to allow us to freely live each moment of our lives without being bound by our anxiety.



Introductory Experience #2:

A few less months ago I attended training to be a volunteer for the Utah County Crisis Line. During this training we spent some time discussing reflective listening. This wasn't really new information to me. I have spent the last 2 years of my life learning and practicing these skills. At one point during the training we discussed what people do not want to hear when they are in any crisis, be it large or small. One phrase that was said was "Everything will be OK."  When this phrase is said by the person who is not in the crisis, but by the other person listening about the crisis, it seems to dismiss the person’s crisis, sending them the message that they really shouldn’t be worried or anxious about this particular thing.  I am sure we have all either had this experience or one equal to it where our feelings or concerns were just dismissed for us by someone else… there is little else that gets me quite as ticked as when I see this happen with me or with someone else.



After these two experiences telling me how important this phrase was, it seemed that this phrase not only presented itself many times throughout the year, but somehow became the theme of my year. For me this phrase is all about trust, and trusting in our Heavenly Father.  Let me demonstrate with just a few of the many experiences I had this last year:



Experience #1:

After feeling prompted to sign for another housing contract when I still had to pay for my current housing contract for 4 more months this phrase became a daily mantra. I signed and began paying double rent all the while praying and doing all that I could to sale my contract.  For about three weeks nothing happened, nothing changed, and my anxiety over the situation went through the roof (there was no way I could afford to pay double rent for 4 months).  The entire time I just kept telling myself over and over again, “Everything will be OK.”  I had no idea how that would happen, I only knew that I was prompted by the spirit and I knew the Lord would not abandon me. It was scary because perhaps in the Lords eyes OK meant that I would be paying double rent for the summer, and if that was the case I would then have to trust the Lord that this situation would not ruin me financially and it would still be OK.  Trust is hard when I am scared and worried, but when I do trust in Him it is so freeing (especially from my anxiety). Once the whole situation panned out, everything really was OK, and the Lord really did know what he was doing. I even ended up saving money in rent that summer.  It wasn’t ideal, but it worked.



Experience #2:

While this one hasn’t quite wrapped itself up like the previous experience it has helped me learn to trust my Heavenly Father more than I thought possible. This last year I have watched two of my family members struggle, each with different things but each choosing in part the same ending.  Both have chosen, for reasons I don’t fully know, to stop participating in the blessings the gospel has to offer.  While I do not know all of their trials and heartache, I am keenly aware of my own heartache for them.  I hurt as I think of the wonderful blessings they are missing out on.  And I hurt as I think how this decision will affect their children and our family.  I pray that they will be able to see how the gospel blesses lives and by living these true principles we and they will be happy and taken care of in this life and that they will choose to participate again. Like anyone I do not know how their lives will turn out.  I do not know if they will ever turn back to the Lord, His ways and His church. But I have to trust that ‘everything will be OK.’ I don’t know when and I don’t know how and I don’t even know what OK will be, but I have to trust that it will turn out OK. I have to trust that Heavenly Father loves them more than I love them, that He will not give up on them and that He will give them every possible opportunity to choose Him.



In truth I could share what feels like a dozen other stories where this same principle presented itself in 2011 and maybe is still present as I enter 2012. But I hope these two stories suffice. I have never had a theme for an entire year. Apparently it was not only an important lesson to learn but the lesson to learn. What was your lesson for 2011?